It’s been some time since I’ve written a TToT post. It’s been even longer since I had anything to really be thankful for. I do, however, have some things to appreciate this week, so I’ll get right to it.
- I haven’t had a drink in 17 days. Coincidentally (or not) I’ve been feeling better physically and mentally. I haven’t really been depressed at all. My mind still wanders to some of the shitty things that have happened to me, but unlike before it isn’t a jump off the high dive like it has been recently. I still have trouble getting to sleep at night, though. I just can’t shut my mind off. One thing at a time I guess.
- I bought a computer on Ebay like three weeks ago. The computer seemed to be working upon receipt, but I was running into problems when I tried to play a game. The machine would black screen. At first I thought the video card was bad so the guy I bought the computer from sent me a new one. I swapped it out, but that didn’t resolve it. I then figured out it was the processor when a coworker lent me an old processor he had lying around (which happened to be compatible with my board). It took two weeks, but I finally got a replacement processor Tuesday night, and my computer has been running like a champ ever since.
- The War on Diapers has been going good so far. We’ve had a few accidents, but overall Baby C is making it to the bathroom to pee. A handful of times he’s gone in there without even telling me until he was finished. There have been casualties, though. He’s already soaked 4 pairs of underwear, the carpet, and the couch. Still, it’s going well, overall.
- I seem to have found my groove again on this blog thing. I published at least one post every day this week, excluding the weekend (because weekend).
- Along with the end of drinking on a regular basis, I have also decided to take myself off of Prozac. I don’t think it’s quite doing it’s job anymore. I’m often extremely emotional when certain things happen, which was entirely out of character before I started taking it. Plus, I figure if I need an adjustment I may as well go done rather than up and see what happens. So far I’ve been a tad irritable, but that could be because I’m chasing C around the house to make sure he’s not peeing on everything…and failing.
- Lizzi wrote an AMAZING poem with incredibly creative formatting and then said that I was the inspiration for her incredible formatting. That made me all warm and fuzzy inside. Inspiring someone who inspires me is…inspiring.
- My sister-in-law started a new job this week, which is great because they are struggling financially.
- I am thankful for the four-day weekend I just started.
- Coffeh. I can never ben thankful enough for coffeh. I’m like a diesel truck and coffeh is my fuel.
- I’m thankful that I’m publicly blogging again, and back in the TToT link up.

17 days is AWESOME!!!! Yay!
I went from Prozac to St. John’s Wort. GREAT substance. I can control the dosage depending on how much of a difference there is between objective and subjective reality (Life is good, I can see that, but I feel suicidal) and it’s easy to procure (HBC Protocols has a very high quality product). I’ve been on it for nearly 20 years with no serious relapse or major depressive crisis in spite of some horrific life events in the interval.
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Really? Is that OTC? I may look into that if I feel like I need something.
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It is OTC. But, like Prozac, it takes a few weeks before you feel the effectiveness. I’m actually going to give you advice now (you can reject it, of course) if I were you and breaking a booze habit, I wouldn’t dump the Prozac for a few months. I’ve seen this before. I’d get the whole booze thing under more confident control then think about dumping the anti-depressant (which is also helpful to manage mild manic states, as you know). I’d give yourself time. You’re such a cool and talented guy and such a loving dad, I’d hate to see you crash, truly.
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Well, I’d hafta get back to the doc, cuz I took the last one on Wednesday…
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Try the St. Johns Wort — that’s what I did last time I had to get off anti-depressants. That was Cymbalta and the withdrawal was really scary (giant electric shocks inside my brain — so it felt), but the St. Johns Wort definitely helped with that and prevented a crash. Be good to yourself.
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I haven’t really had any problems yet. As I said, I was on a low dose. But I’ll definitely keep that in mind if something comes up.
Thank you so much for your input.
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Frist?
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Damn. made the rookie mistake of reading it all first to see why you linked me! Now I do, and THANK YOU – for the shout out, and for the inspiration 🙂
YAY for no drinking, YAY for not prozac, and YAY for Baby C getting the hang of toilet training.
But mostly YAY! cos you’re back in the TToT 😀 Sounds like things are largely on an ‘up’, which is awesome,
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Yes, they are right now. I just hope they stay that way.
I can’t believe you made a rookie mistake…
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I KNOW RIGHT?! Wow. What a DAMNFOOL! *sigh* Still, for me the biggest thankful here is that you’re BACK 😀
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Yay! Thanks!
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I don’t think so….You’re welcome to try again, though.
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Not even CLOSE damnit 😦
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11. Crystal, because she is cool and shit and I like to pimp her out because she LOVES IT!
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LMAO
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congrats on the drinking. and the potty training and the four day weekend and now I have to go see Lizzi’s poem so thanks for that too!
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Lizzi’s poem is AMAZEBALLS!
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Well, welcome back to the hop! I think it’s fabulous that you’ve gone 17 days without a drink, and even more fabulous that you’re feeling better, both physically and mentally.
My son peed all over the place when he was potty training, but he didn’t go to college in diapers, so know that Baby C WILL be potty trained!
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He’s doing really well, overall. It’s going more smoothly than I thought it would.
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Good for you on the no drinking. I’m thankful for that
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Me, too. I’ll save that for having a good time instead of battling demons. That was getting me nowhere.
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You do know you’re not supposed to just stop taking your anti-depressant all at once, don’t you? You should be under a doc’s supervision if you don’t think it’s working for you anymore.
I am going through a med re-balancing right now & I know it’s not easy, but in the end it will be better.
Very glad to hear you are taking a break from drinking. You didn’t say you were quitting, but a break is good too!
I sent you some suggestions on potty training Baby C that worked for me, but then I potty trained much earlier than you. My sister didn’t potty train any of her boys until they were 3.
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Thank you for the suggestions! They are much appreciated!
I’m actually on a very low dose and the next step down would be none at all anyhow. My doc tried to take me off of them last year, but I kinda told him that wasn’t happening at the time. I think I’m finally ready for it.
I’m going to see the doc soon, because I want to stay on my mood stabilizers. Even before I started taking prozac I had a problem with mood swings, so I want to stay on those no matter what.
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Hoorah for you! An accomplishment to be proud of.
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Thanks!
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Nice job, TD! I need to quit drinking for a few weeks because I’ve been really doing it way too much lately. 17 days off would be great! I feel ya on the potty training. We’ve been really lucky, so I won’t complain about it. Gman was a bit of a hassle, but not like most boys apparently are. You’ll get through it with C before you even know it.
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Thanks, Don! He’s catching on quickly, thank gawd.
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Yay for Lizzy being an inspiration and you one to her. i know both of you are inspirational to me.
Yay for TToT and all the public blogging you’ve been doing lately. 🙂
And yay for potty training… I’m holding my thumbs for you.
And yay for the not 17 days of sober. 🙂 (HUGS) I’m happy for ya. 🙂
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Potty training is going well!! So far…
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I for one am glad for the bloggy thing! Congrats on the potty training.
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Thanks, V!
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I am thankful that you are doing well my friend! like things are looking brighter.
When you’re having one of those days with Baby C, just think of me in a furniture store with my son and his little friend at age 3. They were fully potty trained, but when they felt the need to go they did just that on an innocent sofa that was on display.
Sorry to say we ran out of the store like we just robbed the place! Hey, I wasn’t paying for an ugly couch with piss on it … yikes!
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Hahaha! Piss and run! That’s hilarious!
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I take Abiify and Cipralex and these together work really well.
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I’ll make an appt soon to see what my doc thinks.
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Yay for all the good things. It’s about damn time. Day 20 here after a conscious period of use. I’m glad you are feeling better and don’t think its a coincidence.
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Thanks, hon! It’s probably not a coincidence, but I’m a skeptic. Hooray for Day 20!
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Lots of good things going on here. I am really happy that you are making positive changes in your personal maintenance program. It is good to feel good!
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Thanks!
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Hey, Continue to feel better, remember that the thankful crew is here for you!
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Thanks, Michelle!
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So glad to hear things are looking up for you. Loved bullet one – mostly because you feel so much better as a result of the change.
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I do! Thanks, Nancy!
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Welcome back to the TToT!
It sounds like you are making some good, positive changes for your overall health. I pray you continue to feel better and better as a result.
Potty training is my least favorite thing to do in all of this world. Good luck with that. 🙂
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We’re definitely encountering some…hurdles. Thanks!
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You know deep in your heart that there’s a direct correlation between not drinking and feeling better. Henceforth, drink more = feel worse.
Huzzah to whomever manufactured your computer for standing behind a flawed product. They could have cut you loose.
We’re thankful you’re blogging again, as well. Has someone already said that? Talk about stating the obvious.
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Thanks, Mark. Of course, as soon as I put on here that the damned thing is working the power supply blows up. Literally. So I went out today and bought another one. Sigh…
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All these made this chica very happy!!! So glad to hear that things are settling down and that you are feeling stronger! A non-alcoholic CHEER to you! 🙂
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Yay! Thanks, chica!!
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Blogging publicly again? Is this blog now public, or?
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Yes. It is now.
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I’m really happy your blogging again, too. I was supportive, of course, but it would have been such a shame to lose your voice here. I still have a BUNCH of your posts in my email to catch up on!
I am mentally high fiving you right now for 17 days without a drink. Especially through potty training. You don’t go small do you? I don’t miss those day. I will never forget the day my son had a poop accident in his wears and decided to try to clean it up himself which resulted in him flinging the soiled drawers around the bathroom…..you can use your imagination for the rest. With that, I wish you a happy week! Enjoy this last day of your four day weekend!
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Yeah, I didn’t think this through, did I? Potty training, coming off Prozac, and stopping drinking all at the same time. Eh, it’s all working out. All three are going well.
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Wow 17 days is bighuge! Good for you! And yay for getting off the prozac as well. Nothing against being medicated but it seems like all of them either stop working or start working differently so if we can manage without them, I think it’s better. Hang in there with Baby C. It took my kid what felt like forever to potty train but now? He’s a total champ and hasn’t peed on the couch or the floor for more than a year. One day, he opened the front door and peed on the porch but I think that was more like “hey cool, I can point my penis outside” ya know?
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We haven’t had an accident in a day and a half! He’s doing great so far!!
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OH! and yay too for you and Lizzi inspiring one another and all of the rest of us. Her poem rocked.
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Lizzi is AMAZING.
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Love this..and thank you for the reminder that there are things to be thankful for..I’ve been really bound up in some sad shit lately…but life is good..I need to remember that.
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Sorry to hear that. Hope things start looking up for you soon.
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Not a big surprise that you’re feeling better now you’re drinking less. The alcohol will have been cancelling out the effects of the prozac. I’d recommend you bob to your doctor and check in about how things are going rather than just quitting or reducing your dose, just so that it’s on record and you’ve had some medical support on the decision. Unless your doctor is an arsehole, in which case, go right ahead.
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I’ll be seeing him soon. I’m still on a mood stabilizer, and wish to remain on that. I’ve always had an issue with mood swings, even before divorce came in and magnified my depression to the 10th power.
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Sounds like a good plan.
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