Withdrawal

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That feeling when you’re starving
But eating makes you nauseous
The only things you can stomach
Leave you feeling unconscious
Coffee and liquor numb the feels
Fill the void gaping inside
Stifle the tears that always flow
Outside you live, but inside you’ve died

That feeling when you’re ready for sleep
But your demons have conquered the sandman
Your mind wanders while you stare at ceiling
Every thought lasts a lifespan
Despite the tears your eyes are dry
You revisit mistakes, lament every sin
Embrace eternal damnation
Welcome the devil within

That feeling when nothing matters
You know in your heart you should care
But can’t manage a single fuck to give
You wonder just why you’re here
You wonder how to go on
What purpose is there?
If you leaped from the ledge
Would anyone care?

Fatigue sets in, focus is narrow
The only thing on which you can dwell
Is that which is missing
That which plunged you into this hell
You medicate the demons
Placate their desire
The peace will be temporary
But will last ’til you expire

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11 Comments on Withdrawal

  1. Oh dear. I hope you’re looking back on how you felt, and aren’t feeling like this now.

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  2. I’d care!!
    Avoid all the ledges!!

    Anything I can do to help? More silly little prince videos? Want to write something together to have a new project? Want to swap stories on the sins that haunt our nights?

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  3. And when you grasp that sweet release
    Of cold, of dark, of strivings ceased
    Will you feel settled? Comfort? Peace?
    Or would you wish you could increase

    The length of time you chose to stay
    Away from ledges, live another day
    What wonders were on your pathway
    Had your world not gone astray

    And yet who dares to e’en demand
    That you should take this lifelong stand
    To stay, perforce, and to withstand
    The great unknowns that Fate had planned

    Not I, forsure, and p’r’aps not you
    Could ever know what’s right to do
    I’ll just hope that you might choose
    To stay, while Life each day accrues.

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  4. I would care.

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  5. I think about you all of the time and was excited to see you back…don’t make me miss you more. I’m with Elyse and hope this is reflection of what once was.

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  6. I wish there was a ‘hug’ button. You and I Scott, I think we need to sit together with something safe and just not say a word till we feel even a little bit healed.

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